i hate drama. someone please make it stop. why can't we all just be friends? that would be cool.

The Future.

And no. I'm not talking about the time when we'll have hover crafts and be able to teleport. I'm talking about the next few weeks, months, years. It's so daunting! Never when I was little did I think the question "What do you want to be when you grow up?" would be so difficult! But it is seriously the hardest question I have had to answer. Well, that along side "Where to go for college?" question. Growing up, I was never like, THIS! is what I want to do when grow up. (well except that phase where I wanted to be a grocery cashier:) And even now, if I'm completely honest with myself, I THINK I just want to take pictures and get married. That is all. Is that so much to ask? Is it fine that it's not the most practical thing ever? These are all the things I have to think through and pray through. And it's SO tough. But something encouraging to me…I met a college girl at a FCA thing the other night and I was telling her about college stuff and all, and after telling me she would pray for me, she told me "yeah. These decisions are so big and we feel like if we make the wrong choice we're gonna ruin our life. But we HAVE to remember. No matter what desecion we make, God uses it. He already knows what we decide and has planned it all out." (maybe she didn't say it like that exactly but that was the jist of it.) I so needed to hear that. If I didn't get anything else out of the night but that, it was a night well spent. Cuz guys, it's true. We can't mess up God's plan. Our failures and mistakes are in His plans. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." This doesn't let us know which college we should apply to, or who to marry, but it does take some pressure off. But goodness people, if you think about me, please pray for me. This is a very hard time for me right now in alllll the decisions I have to make. More than just college stuff. That's all I got for now. Thanks guys!

Today's Prayer.

1. Jesus cast a look on me,

Give me sweet simplicity

Make me poor and keep me low,

Seeking only Thee to know

2. All that feeds my busy pride,

Cast it evermore aside

Bid my will to Thine submit,

Lay me humbly at Thy feet

3. Make me like a little child,

Of my strength and wisdom spoiled

Seeing only in Thy light,

Walking only in Thy might

4. Leaning on Thy loving breast,

Where a weary soul can rest

Feeling well the peace of God,

Flowing from His precious blood

5. In this posture let me live,

And hosannas daily give

In this temper let me die,

And hosannas ever cry!

really? realllly?? when are you going to get it that i'm not a little girl anymore?

it's done.

well, it's official. they are hitched!!!!! it was a WONDERFUL, beautiful, Christ centered, emotional, fun, overwhelming, and exhausting weekend! but totally worth it. FOR SURE. emily was the most beautiful bride i've seen and i couldn't help but tear up watching my brother recite his vows. i'll have to post some pictures later and write some more when im not so exhausted. but, THEY'RE MARRIED!!! (and happily honey mooning in San Fran!) ;)

you make me smile. :)