Actually…just kidding. I'm freakin out a lot. I'm so nervous but not about everything. See I'm looking forward to meeting new people and my living with my roommate, I'm super excited about being with my brother and sister (and possibly another sister soon), and I just LOVE being on top of a mountain. No, what I'm freakin out about is school. I had the horrible sinking feeling last night that I'm just going in to something that's WAYYYY over my head. I'm an art major (for photography) and my first class is Intro to Drawing. I CAN'T DRAW. I'm so scared I'm not gonna be good enough. And I know that's stupid and God has made me with the talents I have…but I'm still scared. And then my brother told me that we have to do seat auditions for orchestra and just play a piece…guys. I haven't practiced all summer. And I HATE playing by myself in front of people. I just do. I'd rather hide in a group. So I'm freaking out about that…what if the piece I play is too simple? What if I try a hard one and completely mess up? What if I completely fail at the sight reading? I'm gonna be nervous and sweaty and shakey. It's not gonna be good.
So yeah. Please pray for me if you think about. Haha I'm just a little nervous….
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